Sleeping Spell

Do you truly think that my heart can despise
The love of my life who was waiting for me
And I him rather impatiently,
Love is a myth of a fact or a rumor
There’s only room for two no matter your tutor
Love is no game, actually a challenge
But the best is to come for those who have knowledge
Knowing the chance and taking the risk
To love one completely without a fight with a fist.
My whole hearted soul awaits you in your sleep
While I lie here awaiting your presence to speak.
I love you

Disgusting Pig From My Dreams

Fill my lungs with smoke
As I dig a deeper hole
I am betrayed
You unloyal mother fuk
This situation is only getting worse
Your cruelty makes me sick
I despise your soul
You fuking sick fuk
Rest In Peace with your truly beloved
Your cheating whore
An apology will not suffice
You created this device
I forgave a million times
You should shovel your own ground

I’ll fill my lungs with smoke
Before I break down
Just another break down
There’s no light at the end of the tunnel for you
Your stench wreaks in my nose
STAY TRUE?
Ya, FUK YOU
You don’t even know what it meant
Where I come from
My souls burning is disguise
From disgust
You’re just a bitch and I’m a bad mother fuker
If you only knew who I am you’d see
You’ll never fuk with another like me

You’re just the pig from my dreams

© J.C.B 1/25/17

 

 

 

 

Garage Gun Fight

I didn’t sleep all night until this morning.. I started thinking a spider was crawling on me and that I’m losing my mind from insomnia but then found a spider under me this morning. Ugh

I did sleep for about an hour this morning and had this dream:

Arnold Schwarzenegger and I were walking to our cars at a mall around 5:30pm. All of the sudden I see some kid try to hand the security guard a gun but the security guard didn’t take it so the kid shot him in the groin.

The kid then ran to hand the gun to me so I took and and started pretending to shoot people. There was a swarm of these guys wearing hoodies handing out guns and whoever didn’t start killing people they would shoot point blank.

Arnold and I kept going up the staircase to try to get away but all of doors back into the mall were locked. We looked down and could see them taking over levels one by one. My thought was to find my car then haul out of there running them over, but we couldn’t find my car.

At the end of the dream everyone had hostages and someone handed me a new gun because I ran out of ammunition.. I looked at Arnold for advice and he took the gun from me and started pretending to teach me how to use it. I then crawled off to continue to look for my car but couldn’t find it still. I came back to get Arnold but he wasn’t there. He had fallen over the railing but wasn’t dead just stuck in the crevice of the staircase. He got out and everyone waiting on me to shoot people, then I woke up.

I thought about going back to finish the dream to see if we lived or if he saved the day somehow but didn’t want to.

I’m tired of not sleeping. I’m tired of nightmares and f*** that spider that made me think I was losing my mind.

© J.C.B. 1/24/17

Full Moon

Full moon on decline
You tell me what’s on your mind and I
Don’t understand how our worlds entwine
Because you-
Twist and turn them in full recline
I say one thing and you say another
As if I am on one plane, and your world is another- uh
I can’t see how I did so wrong
Asking you to not leave me on the ground
Can I? Ask you this, or it’s too profound
To be meaningful & respect what natures found?
So I- keep leaning and feeling down
One tie on one shoe but only one foot on the ground
Keep weeping and hurting harder
What’s the sense in it- taking word for tomorr’a
There’s no flat where they got us now because
I’ve got two shoes but only one on the ground…..